Strength and weakness

[Denestera]

My life was build on three fundamental bastions: Riding, Singing and Dancing.

Pure movements which needed no questions nor answers.
Do that and all is well.

Nobody is needed.

But things changed. It doesn't work anymore.

I don't like dependency on others. Don't like to rely on others.
I know it's totally wrong to put somebody as ur aim.
So, the first reaction was to resist the fact that presence of this man gave me reasons.
I was resisting till the End... I am strong. I can live on my own.
Till that moment when I felt the breath of Death on my neck.
I was in total Darkness. I was free, independent, self-sufficient... And totally useless.

So, it became perfectly clear that it's natural way to be with someone.
To rely on someone, to cooperate, to move forward together.
To be something more than you are alone.

I see my future in his eyes.
He is my Light who lightens my way towards Greatnees beyond imaginings.
While he's around I know where to go and what to do.
I see purpose. I have strengths to reach it.
His presence motivates me to be better than I am.

It scares... What if he dissaprears?
What would I do then?
How do I survive?
I remember how it ended last time.
But also I know that now it's different.

I can breath without him.
I can act without him.

I am the Sourse of my powers.

I do things for myself. I better myself for myself.
I DO everything. I act. I reach MY goals. For myself.
What is important is the Result not it's ways to success.
So, it's about resourses. Use them while u have them.

Dot.


Ска, ну и повезло же мне вляпаться в твою иностранную копию...
Но, это в целом объясняет почему он мне так нравится =)

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