I'm talking about many things lately leaving out the most important thing.

The Being.

It might have many names like Soul, Heart, Spirit, Higher-self or any other...
It's a Core, a foundation for everything: decisions, wishes, actions.
And fills existence with Sense.

A personality of any human is a complicated mix of many influences.
We get nurture, education, suggestions of mass MEDIA, culture, literature, movies, ART and etc...
It's very easy to get confused with all of that mess while you are out of connection with your Core, your Being.

While you've lost the light of the Lighthouse which guides you through life you are like blind kitten wondering the Darkness by touch.

This substance tells you if the choises you take are corresponding to the natural order of the Universe and your Path...
To Your-Self.

Years ago I've desided that the voice of my Core is nothing but an illusion.
And I have to learn to live my life with "REAL" things...
I was never as mistaken as then.

I've lost connection with my Inside...
Of course it was still there, sometimes knowlege just sparkled in me as scintilla of Truth.
I just knew things as immutable knowledge.

Sometimes you need to forget to learn something new.

The control of this ability returned and the World started to sparkle with Magic.
And now I have to learn how to feel and hear my inner Voice again.
Still afraid that it might turn into illusion... And I lose it all once more.
The small and careful steps I take.

To Start over.