I was denying a call of my inner Demons, fears and Abyss almost for 6 months. Although Tarot were telling more than once that I should face them all and learn...
It was a period of self rejection. I've found out it now.

So... The time has come.
I give in to my Darkness.
I fall into it's warm wide open arms asking to embrace me.

Is there any Light into the Darkness? Yes.
The Darkness itself is a Light.